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A Perfect Coffee Date With You

Dear My Allan,

” I love you so much till the end of the world. You are my one and only man forever and ever.”

My Allan, I may not be a perfect person but I’ll try my best to be a perfect one for you.
Even there’s a distance between us it doesn’t matter cause what’s matter is that our love to each other.

A love that given by God.
A love that needs to be treasure forever.

I am grateful to have you. I am blessed to have you. I am happy to have you.

This was our first perfect coffee date and It was so amazing cause I can’t forget this day for you took me to a park which there’s a lot of fish and people. You hold your phone and I hold my phone too and walking together.

I thank God for everything. And we know that God gave this kind of love for us. So, our relationship will be a message to everyone as a return to the Above.

Cause we know that our lived is a message to the world. As together we can do it with God.

Love
J. J

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LIFE is not Easy 

Life is not easy.

Life is a battle that needs to be fight everyday but fight the real war with a real weapon.

Life is about respect. You can’t see life if you don’t respect yourself and others. 

Life is about giving and sharing. Not just money but those things that you have with extra cause you cannot give  what you don’t have. Give or share without expecting any in return remember God will never forget what did you do with right motives.


Yes, Life is hard if you don’t listen, you don’t want corrections, you don’t explore and you don’t focus on God. 

Let God drive your everyday life cause everyday is a battle.

LIFE is not Easy 

Life is not easy.

Life is a battle that needs to ne fight everyday but fight the real war with a real weapon.

Life is about respect. You can’t see life if you don’t respect yourself and others. 

Life is about giving and sharing. Not just money but those things that you have with extra cause you cannot give  what you don’t have. Give or share without expecting any in return remember God will never forget what did you do with right motives.


Yes, Life is hard if you don’t listen, you don’t want corrections, you don’t explore and you don’t focus om God. 

Let God drive your everyday life cause everyday is a battle.

LIFE is not Easy 

Life is not easy.

Life is a battle that needs to ne fight everyday but fight the real war with a real weapon.

Life is about respect. You can’t see life if you don’t respect yourself and others. 

Life is about giving and sharing. Not just money but those things that you have with extra cause you cannot give  what you don’t have. Give or share without expecting any in return remember God will never forget what did you do with right motives.


Yes, Life is hard if you don’t listen, you don’t want corrections, you don’t explore and you don’t focus om God. 

Let God drive your everyday life cause everyday is a battle.

Your Faith and Your Prayer

Do not underestimate your PRAYER and your FAITH. You will never know where would it take you. 🙂

Simple faith with a simple prayer is the best weapon we could use every single day.

Faith and prayer will take you everywhere.

How sinner we are , this is the best we could wear everyday.

Know the word ” DESERVE “

you deserve better

you deserve to be love

you deserve to be treated rightly

you deserve to be care

you deserve to know the truth

you deserve to live your life to the fullest

you deserve someone who loves you till the end of your life

you deserve of something great

you deserve to be honor

you deserve to be respected

you deserve to treated kindly

you deserve everything

 

SO DO I AND OTHERS  TOO EITHER.

It Needs To Be Live Worthwhile

Life is lived once but others had a chance to live it twice or even more.

You choose what you want to happen in your life

You choose how to live on it

You are the one how to deal with it

You are the one who is in control of your life.

But don’t forget . YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

Look around you? You see other people right ?

With those people , maybe

there are some who did bullied you.

Some of that people did used you.

Some of that people did look you down.

Some of that people lied to you.

Some of that people broke you.

But, don’t forget

There are also some other people surrounds you now.

Those who love you dearly

Those who care so much to you

Those who sees good things in you

Life is interesting right?

Feel empty ?

Just filled it up with LOVE

Feel lonely ?

Call someone

Don’t want to talk ?

Be alone

But, always remember you know how it feels to broken…

You know how it feels to be lied.

You know how it feels to be lonely.

That’s why, when you know how it feels

Think of the others of what they may be feels too.

How Journal Is Important

For me journal is my one way to communicate to GOD

it’s my thing where I could not live for without it

when I am alone, I always have my journal

where I could write everything and anything

I am in love with my journal

where my journal always know the ME

If who is really me.

My journal is my secret keeper

My journal is my listener

writing is everything to me

and it’s my best comforter

my best friend

and to whom do  I write all of those thoughts ?

To the LORD ( DEAR LORD ).

Dangerous Side of ME

For the past few months everything in me is changing . everything in me is declining, everything in me is wrong. Why? What is happening to me?

As I remember December 2016 I am fine, I am what Lord wants me to be . I am who I am as He sees me.

There was a time that I was sick for almost one week. And that time was my last session in Kairos ( a course knowing GOD ). I am very sick. So, it happened I never attended my last session in kairos. Those are the time that I am very physically down.

And the next week came, I was so busy with my thesis ( research study ). I am always lack of sleep because of busy doing those research even my personal hygiene I forgot sometimes to take. (like bathing, toothbrushing, ect ) With the worry thoughts that what if I can’t passed this research and we’ve gonna get an incomplete remarks in our major subject. ( anyway, in our research we are 3 members of it ). And the time, I am very worried. Always crying and thinking about to give up. But I think about my groupmates what if I gave up ? what would happened to them? So, while continuing doing research even if its Christmas vacation ( eventually, I never felt that its already vacation ). We’ve done a lot of it. Sacrificing to go home in our family for vacation. Still we continue to do those research until yeah! We got those high grades by January 2017.  But our research study is not yet done its still lack of one requirement and we need to insert it into our study.

And while doing that research , I am very busy also chatting with foreigners (sorry! I do like foreign men) , meeting new people, chatting new people and yeah some of them, they want marriage . they want video sex but oppss! I never go with that people. Well, I met few friends out of it.

 

And by, February 2017. I went to the Northern Mindanao for on the job training . ( on-the-job training is one of the requirements for a graduating students or in other term it is a practicum ). Which is very far from our university.

Well, I am so busy finding  a food industry company where to take my OJT. Doing some research and making some requirements. Well, thanks God. I’ve found one food industry.

And then, by the next day, I found a house near at the company where I am going to take my OJT. As I remembered , as I sat down that time, there’s a guy messaged me at my Facebook. I never knew him. And we have different in nationality. But where friends on facebook. Hmmm!

 

But oppsss! While my ojt is on going I never chatted those foreign friends of mine for almost  two months because my laptop is not with me ( my skype app is on my laptop ).

As the days goes by, that someone message me on facebook our conversation went into deeper until such time we are exchanging those sweet words. But there’s time that I felt He rejected me. He never texted me for almost a week and so, I decided on my own to give up. After that week. He message me again. Until I found out that I am unfaithful to him. There’s one of my co-worker courted me (this happened in the week that he never contacted me) . We went two times eating at the outside. And for me that is for friends but that man wanted more from me. So, started that facebook guy blocked him for almost two days because I’ve felt ashamed of what I’ve done. Until then, we’ve deceided to stop communicating . and also that my co-worker I decided to stop communicating to him because I found out that his already a married man with one kid.

And then, March 2017 came from northern Mindanao and traveled back to south Mindanao. ( welcome! Back Juls! Welcome university L! Welcome back to your comfort zone! ).

 

Did you notice, I’ve never mentioned the name of GOD except in the first line? And that what was happened. I never know where I am path with. But I noticed I’ve done wrong. My relationship with GOD was slightly vanished. Everyday I am fighting. Everyday I am doing my devotional to Him but sadly, in every one week for devotional. I am doing it once or twice in a week or sometimes nothing.

I always cried what had happened to me. Where I am now.  I am broken. I am selfish. I am self-centered. I am a liar. I am unfaithful. I am a sinner.

 

Where is that JULPHA JEAN that GOD captured last 2015? Where is that woman now?

I was once lost and found by GOD last 2015. And now, what ? lost again? Or I am just  stubborn woman? A selfish woman ? or an unfaithful woman? L

In the middle of march, I opened again my laptop and there’s one of my foreign friend chatted me. and then, I replied until we ‘ve chatting everyday till today ( May 2017)..

 

I’ve tried to come back to my friends with bible study once a week.  I tried to be back with my devotional every day. But I failed again. I failed again. I am always fighting for this. I am always asking God’s help. Holy Spirit’s leading. But I don’t know huhuhu! L L L .

 

To define me:

I am a liar

I am a selfish

I am unfaithful

I am lazy

I am hypocrite

I am stubborn

I am dirty

I am self-centered

I am no one

I am nothing

I am just a woman who does not deserve to find a right man

I am a woman who is not meant to pursue by a man

I am fall in love always with a wrong man

I am a foolish

I am not a good woman

I am ugly

I am desiring those man who does not even loved me as much I’ve imagined

I am far from what they expect to me

I am a pretender

 

Sometimes, I felt down. Sometimes, I felt

jealous.

and as for this moments, we do have family problems. Even sometimes my relationship with my friends got affected.

My attitude got affected. My personality got affected. Even in every situation I easily got anger. I easily got upset. My trust easily got broken or shaken.

I don’t know where I am now.  So, help me GOD…………………… L

 

GOD KNOWS EVERYTHING I CAN’T HIDE FROM HIM

I AM JUST PUBLISHING THIS THINKING THAT NO ONE WILL READ THIS.

jUST sAYIN’

I JUST WANDERING,

I JUST LISTENING,

I JUST TALKING,

I JUST SAYIN,

I JUST WATCHING YOU,

I  JUST SEEING YOU.

EVERYTHING SEEMS NORMALLY FLOW. AND ASKING ‘ IS THERE ANY ASSURANCE? BUT NO ONE ANSWERED. THUS, THERE’S SOMETHING THAT I ALWAYS BELIEVE AND THAT IS DON’T HURT SOMEONE’S HEART CAUSE LOVE IS NOT A PRICE TO WIN BUT FREELY GIVEN UNCONDITIONALLY IN TYPE OF SERVICE. LOVE IS NOT A GAME TO PLAY. REMEMBER JESUS CHRIST DIED FOR EVERYONE’S HEART AND HE DOESN’T PLAY ON THAT TIME. MOREOVER, GOD IS LOVE.