This book is not about adding knowledge. It goes beyond knowledge.
This book goes into the deepest parts of your heart until it reaches the roots that you thought wasn’t there. The seeds of offenses that have rooted in my heart were gracefully pulled out. It was painful because the roots have already existed in my heart for a very long time.
This book has opened my eyes to the truth about myself by God’s grace it led me to humble myself to repentance and admit the offenses that I have kept through the years.
Moreover, what’s really beneficial is knowing that no need for me to fight for my right in this world cause He already won it.
Lastly, I thought before that when an enemy attacks I can easily conclude that God is shaking me or testing my faith but after reading this book all I could say is all that can be shaken will be shaken. Everything inside your heart and mind that hindered your spiritual walk will be brought out openly for you to correct.
And now, He told me that this book will be pass on to someone He knows deeply.
Before my retreat date arrived, God used the book that I’m currently reading to show me the words silence and solitude and surprisingly, also during Sunday online church. And so, I’m curious about what God will gonna do for my upcoming retreat.
First, I arrived there where the weather was foggy and rainy.
Photo taken before I arrived at the venue.
As I evaluate my heart, it has a lot of questions, desires, and tiredness.
In this retreat, I am with some of the people with whom God allowed me to be involved since my college years. During our college days together, we joined intercessions, united prayer meetings, kairos courses, etc. And as years went by, we’re called to support each other ministry may it be in the field or as a sender.
On the first day of our retreat we’re instructed to be silent also in our rooms no talking unless the director will told us to talk. All of us was shocked! Of course, 3 days of no talking, Hehe.
During my second day, I appreciated the importance of reconnecting to nature. And I asked God, can He search my heart? And He replied, can you seek Me first my child? And I replied, Yes! God, I will.
For hours, I am under His presence. I allowed my self to savour the moment. The more my silence was longer, the more I heard His voice clearly.
This time, I appreciate the moment of silence. Even when I just wanted to walk in the field or listening to the birds, It’s already a prayer.
Yes, that was my experienced there and it was so amazing.
The only bench were we could sit and think clearly.
And there, I offered my Isaac to God and set that free.
After that, I walked around that field and felt so at peace. I walked back to the entrance and as I checked my heart, I felt the peace and light also the place looked so shiny.
I underwent a spiritual direction with our director and His wife. Then, God told me that I have a big room now to nurture what He entrusted to me. They celebrated with me because I am now in spiritual consolation. Yehey! to God be all the glory.
Holy Spirit did something that amazed me after my spiritual direction. And I kept it.
Also, Ate Joi gave a letter.
Before our retreat ends, finally! we are allowed to talked.
All of us got given a chance to share our testimony. And what we discover? during in our silence we found a family.
All for the Glory of God!
As of now, I am continuing my silence in prayer and also, I am hearing His voice even more clearly.
Furthermore, when I came to Troas to preach Christ’s gospel, and a door was opened unto me of the Lord.
God did open a door for me.
2 Corinthians 2:13
I had no rest in my spirit, because I found not Titus my brother: but taking my leave of them, I went from thence into Macedonia.
I went inside into that door. The whole time I really didn’t feel at peace.
So today, I decided to say NO and leave that door. And back to my orignal calling.
”The Macedonian Calling in Acts 16:6-15.”
It is really the orignal calling that God revealed to me at first.
And I felt heavy in my heart in few months. And know I realize it’s because of my disobedience into God’s Word.
Before, I watched the sunday service of Skyline SIB Malaysia. This morning I prayed and meditated to what God wants me to do because yesterday I received a message through my devotional to let go and no to something that God didn’t called me to do.
So, by courage and strength I talked to them explained why I won’t continue serving in that organization.
And then, this Sunday message came and see the link below.
God spoke to my heart directly. And what Ps Dr Chew preached this morning was for me with nothing less and nothing more.
And now, I understand why God wants me to study Paul’s life.
Then, I got 2 Corinthians 2:12-17.
And now, I’m ready to that Macedonian calling with joy and peace into my heart.